Bottled Thinking

Before I met this one man I thought that people are helpless. No use trying to help out the depressed, the miserable or the ones failing. No one ever learns and one single person can't really do a thing in this society. But really, the more people think this way, the less people care for each other. Why couldn't this be reversed? The more people help and care, the more people come along. In theory it would be perfectly possible.

Because people tend to go by the majority. It's a fact. If you disagree, go think this world: how many times have you done something because your friend does it? I know many people who completely live like their relatives: they apply to the same schools, have same hobbies, same opinions about, for example, drinking, drugs and music, and all kinds of things present in their lives.

My erstwhile motives of helping people were, well say bitter. I did so much for everyone, just to bathe in the feeling of getting absolutely nothing back. And I never really did. I acted the therapist for my friends, used my multiple skills to make things better for the others. I even started doing their homework if they were too stressed, busy or tired. And what I learned was that gratitude is never innocent. People might tell you they''re grateful for what you've done for them and they appreciate your acts, but really it's just a way to make you happily do more things for them. Who wouldn't want to work for someone who constantly tells you how important you are to them?

Okay okay, I'm being way too negative. Of course there are people who really mean the appreciation and who whole-heartedly mean every 'thank you'. And who, in return, do something for you. Those people usually are the closest ones to you, while the 'pretenders' never care enough no matter what efforts you make to please them.

I really have too little time and too little space to write down everything I've come up with in this subject. Seriously. Maybe one day I will, or maybe I will edit this text sometime soon, but now I feel like showering, calling my friend and making dinner >.>